sick:(

this is the first time since i've gotten to CNU that i've been sick. I think it may be in part because of all the freezing cold wind bursting into my ears. but who knows? i just know that i don't feel good, and i'd like to change that.

really, being sick is just the big cherry on top of my week. it's been a pretty rough week, dealing with drama and whatnot. oh well, tomorrow's a new day, so hopefully the drama will end soon, and take my aching, crackling, dripping, coughing, 101.4 degree sickness with it. i guess i'll just have to find out.

but for now, i must continue on with the painful idea of homework. ikgch.

♥

annoyed and stressed.

sometimes i get so upset at things that i go into shutdown mode. so, this post will be all me in shutdown mode. i don't know what to do about certain situations sometimes, and worse, i have a half a dozen of them at the same time. or more. i feel like everyone always comes to me for advice, or vents to me about their problems. i don't mind this at all, but i have my own problems too, and i feel a responsibility to my friends to take care of them, while at the same time not bogging them down with my problems too.

i guess this is just one more proof that we're all broken, and we all get ourselves into situations we can't really handle alone. one way or the other, i suppose it's a comfort to know that we are all broken together, whatever that's worth. at least we've all got one another.

back to the grind

14th post. my last blog didn't make it past the 14th, so hopefully this one will continue to thrive past this post.

on to more exciting things, i'm back at school, and so relieved for it. i haven't yet had a class, but my first is in 40 minutes, so i'm just busy killing time right now. the break was nice, but i'm so glad to be back in the routine of things. maybe there's no place like home, but college is even better than home. :)

the shenanigans of college have already begun. we stayed up really late last night (because no one has any homework to do yet) watching P.S. I Love You (great movie if you haven't seen it, but be prepared to cry), and just joking around like we did before the break. i've missed everyone so much! it's good to be back. ;)

♥

home ♥

so i was on my way to the library in my hometown to get a book my teacher recommended i read before classes begin, and i realized how much i love my hometown. it's a tiny, quaint little country place, a one-gas station, single bank, and lonely grocery store type town. nothing swanky, nothing of a citified manner. along with this, i learned that i actually like libraries. i never have had much liking for them, but today, my previous assumption has been bashed. anyway, i'm learning to appreciate more things, like being home. i love being at school, don't get me wrong. but really, there's no place like home.

taking chances?

Lately i've been on a kick about taking chances. you know, do things that I wouldn't usually do to push myself out of my comfort zone. for example, last night (new years eve) i shot a gun. a real gun, not just a shotgun. (i've shot shotguns lots of times, i own two). i think it builds character, going out of my comfort zone. honestly, it's just part of opening up and growing as a person. it's important! :)

♥