beauty school

dropping out of college and going to beauty school is sounding better and better to me all the time. it's basically like a jump-start to a career. or really, just the faster way out. i've always loved anything girly and i can't count the number of times i've had friends ask me to style their hair. i even cut a friend's hair once, and i cut my own bangs often. i'm great with makeup and know hideous clothing from decent clothing, have a love for shoes, and i'm great with my hands. i think i could pull it off. maybe that's what i'll do. it's always been my backup plan-just go to beauty school and become a beautician or whatever it's called. cosmetologist..yeah that's the one. anyway, i'm seriously considering that plan right now. i could get started with my career as a cosmetologist, probably continue waitressing on the side, and then quickly save up money to rent an apartment or something like that...maybe find someone who would want to "room" with me, and split the cost of our house or apartment. i feel like that would be good...but i guess i'll think about my idea for a while before jumping into it. the other thing is, if i go with this decision, i wouldn't really have to worry too much about the whole "grades" thing at CNU.

maybe i'm heading for another blog name change. who knows. i really wanted to be the first in my family to graduate college. but then again, why break the tradition? not to mention, maybe there's a reason the rest of my family skipped out on college...it's just not our thing.

drama lately.

k so random thought for the day:

coke tastes better than pepsi. why CNU decided to sign a contract with pepsi over coca-cola? i'll never know. i grew up with my mama tellin' me "be coca-cola, the real thing. pepsi is fake." i suppose this was her way of telling me to always be myself, and never be one of those put-on people that have really screwed up lives and cover it all up with a big cheesy grin, preppy clothes, and pretty hair.

so here's my plan. if i drop out of college, i'll go to beauty school and become a hair stylist and cosmetic chick. oh and when i'm 21 i could pick up something like bartending. they make a lot of money i hear. it could be fun. but i'm hoping to stay in college.

it seems as though there has been this weird, underlying drama that no one is talking about right now. the worst kind, really, because no one wants to talk about what's bothering them, and there are always a number of things that could be bothering someone, but everyone around them won't know until people start talking. basically, it's stressful. and kind of affecting my ability to focus on homework.

i'm also thinking of changing the name of my blog. i think it's taken a turn, more of a "my life" type deal, rather than a bucket list type blog. i'll probably make it something like "the terribly uninteresting story of a college girl's life" or something like that. reminds me of that thing..what is it, um "diary of a wimpy kid"...i never understood that.

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moved!

so I moved. just across the hall, no big huge deal, but it was a bit of a hassle at first. oh well, it's over now, and i'm starting to get all settled in. things are still pretty fresh, and actually, I still need to finish up some paperwork with the move, but other than that, i'm pretty much all moved in to my new room with Maryssa, my bestie. i'm also feeling MUCH better, thanks to sudafed and sleep. :) two weeks can be pretty annoying sometimes, but it's all better now! i went home for the weekend with maryssa, and i'm planning to go to my house next weekend, and take sarah and kim. I invited maryssa too, but she's busy that weekend. spring break is coming up though, so hopefully she can come visit then. :)

i have lots of homework, so toodles!
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sick:(

this is the first time since i've gotten to CNU that i've been sick. I think it may be in part because of all the freezing cold wind bursting into my ears. but who knows? i just know that i don't feel good, and i'd like to change that.

really, being sick is just the big cherry on top of my week. it's been a pretty rough week, dealing with drama and whatnot. oh well, tomorrow's a new day, so hopefully the drama will end soon, and take my aching, crackling, dripping, coughing, 101.4 degree sickness with it. i guess i'll just have to find out.

but for now, i must continue on with the painful idea of homework. ikgch.

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annoyed and stressed.

sometimes i get so upset at things that i go into shutdown mode. so, this post will be all me in shutdown mode. i don't know what to do about certain situations sometimes, and worse, i have a half a dozen of them at the same time. or more. i feel like everyone always comes to me for advice, or vents to me about their problems. i don't mind this at all, but i have my own problems too, and i feel a responsibility to my friends to take care of them, while at the same time not bogging them down with my problems too.

i guess this is just one more proof that we're all broken, and we all get ourselves into situations we can't really handle alone. one way or the other, i suppose it's a comfort to know that we are all broken together, whatever that's worth. at least we've all got one another.

back to the grind

14th post. my last blog didn't make it past the 14th, so hopefully this one will continue to thrive past this post.

on to more exciting things, i'm back at school, and so relieved for it. i haven't yet had a class, but my first is in 40 minutes, so i'm just busy killing time right now. the break was nice, but i'm so glad to be back in the routine of things. maybe there's no place like home, but college is even better than home. :)

the shenanigans of college have already begun. we stayed up really late last night (because no one has any homework to do yet) watching P.S. I Love You (great movie if you haven't seen it, but be prepared to cry), and just joking around like we did before the break. i've missed everyone so much! it's good to be back. ;)

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home ♥

so i was on my way to the library in my hometown to get a book my teacher recommended i read before classes begin, and i realized how much i love my hometown. it's a tiny, quaint little country place, a one-gas station, single bank, and lonely grocery store type town. nothing swanky, nothing of a citified manner. along with this, i learned that i actually like libraries. i never have had much liking for them, but today, my previous assumption has been bashed. anyway, i'm learning to appreciate more things, like being home. i love being at school, don't get me wrong. but really, there's no place like home.